Last night, I spent 6 hours studying for an exam that I knew I was more than likely going to fail. Why did I end up in this situation? Because I’m a fool. Only a fool would make unwise decisions while telling himself that it’ll be fine. I’ve been shooting myself in the foot this whole time and I think it’s time to stop. Because of my stupid actions, I’ve lost any and all chances of getting an A in two of my classes. Enough is enough. It’s time I took initiative to take control of my life and my real priorities. Here’s what’s going to happen:
These are the three main main initiatives I will be taking to better improve myself. It’s about time I stopped making excuses for myself and took responsibility for my actions. I’m really sorry if this is an inconvenience for anybody. Thank you for understanding.
Oh, and if you think that can’t go through with this, then just try me.
I think it’s about high time for a simple, down to earth update that’s genuinely all about me. If you came for pictures, I’m sorry but I’m going to have to leave you empty-handed this time around. It’s been raining quite a bit lately so I haven’t had the opportunity to take photos. BUT, I have a sketchpad and I’ve been sketching down visions of drawings of photos that I want to take, what type of person should be in them, and everything that is required to make it possible. Plus, I’ve been in the talks with a few people who want to be in them. So please, stay put. You’ll be able to see a lot of my visions soon. :)
Anyways, about ME. A lot has happened within the past few weeks, but I’m just too unmotivated to remember every last thing that has happened. So I’ll go ahead and summarize all of my happenings into three subjects: school, work, and everything else.
School: School has been fair to me, to say the very least. I’ve realized for the past few weeks that I’m behind in all of my classes. Though there’s plenty of time to do things, I keep waiting until the last minute to do it. I told myself that I would avoid this habit before the semester and I still continue to tell myself that. Nonetheless, I’ve picked up a bit. I’ve been following reading assignments closely and things are starting to look up. I recieved a PERFECT score on my speech (a self-introductory speech) last week and I have two Biology tests this week, one which has already passed. I know I didn’t do so well on it, probably got a B or C. The other one is tomorrow and feel that I’m just not prepared for it. Other than that, I have a few novels I have to read within the next few weeks. So that means less computer time.
Work: Work is awesome, it’s really amazing and I’m lying. Work is gay. People keep coming and going as usual, and I don’t mean customers either. On top of it all, work can be very fatiguing. I hate the feeling of coming home from work to try to study just to fall asleep on the desk within minutes. Oh, and I could’ve sworn that morning meetings were supposed to be in the morning, and not the evening. If the morning meeting was never broken, DON’T try to fix it.Whatever, even though I’m complaining like a child, it’s still nothing I can’t handle. Just get in, complete the job, and get out.
Everything else: To type everything else that has been going on with me in the form of a paragraph would take up too much time. So here’s a list of stuff that’s been goin on with me.
That’s really about it. Even though there’s a lot more, that’s all that I can think of from the top of my head for now. If anything else comes up, I’ll let you know.
Thank you for reading! :)
4 months. It’s taken 4 months for me to get off my lazy high horse to write a post. But why? Have I been busy? No. Am I disappointed with myself? YES. What compelled me over the summer to not want to update my site, let alone visit it? It must be my own laziness, my own lack of motivation. Not too many people visit often, and I wouldn’t be surprised if nobody did at all. People come back to a website to view fresh, new content. This website has nothing because I do nothing. So from now on, I’ve come up with a proposal, a simple goal. At least one post a week. I pay money to keep this site up, which is all good and well, but if I’m not making an effort to use the site, then I’m just wasting my money. Expect the site to have a makeover soon too. It’s not going to be a complete redesign (don’t have time for that crap), but a template swap. A good one for that matter. :)
SUMMER WAS AMAZING!! Just kidding, it was good though. I didn’t travel much, except to Austin a few times. Having to work was the main reason why. Work is such a pain, but as long as I’m rockin’ a paycheck, I shouldn’t care. But best of all, nothing beated hanging out with friends. All those summer nights spent hanging out, eating food, and playing Street Fighter IV all night until the sun came out… they never went to waste.
This semester I will be a full-time student and employee. I am studying for 13 semester credit hours and will be working 32+ hours a week. It will be busy, it will be hectic, and the only that I hope is that I don’t falter. I’m very serious this semester. My goal is to raise my GPA from 3.1 to 3.4 and even further next semester. What I get for being an idiot for the past two semesters. So with that said, I can’t do any more half-assing. The Xbox, it has to go. (Well, I’m not getting rid of it, cause you know, I might need it for something.)
And that’s it for now. With that said, I need to get ready for work.
It seems that I’m always on and off when it comes to blogging. I’ll blog a post, and leave it alone for a long time. To say “I’ve been busy lately”, would just be another excuse which you’ve all heard from me plenty of times. To be honest, I just haven’t felt like updating. It’s not that I didn’t want to, I’ve just been to lazy to get around to it. Thankfully, the spring semester is nearly over, and I will have more time to myself.
Just incase you’ve been wondering, working at Best Buy has been great so far. It has it’s disadvantages against working at Circuit City, but the advantages greatly outnumber them. Perhaps I should talk more about it in the future?
Right now as I’m typing this, at five in the morning, I’m taking a break from studying. This is the first night I’ve been able to study this week. I swear, if I studied as much as I played Street Fighter IV, I would be an amazing student. Right now my grades aren’t looking so hot. Two B’s and an A. My goal is to complete the semester with a 4.0 GPA and I’m not giving up on it. No more last-minute study nights or procrastinations. Study now, study hard, and get it done.
“Dude, hurry up and make a new video”
Shut up. I will. But I have to be honest. You may not see anything until the semester is over. I’d rather make a video with more people in them and I’m trying to invest in a new camcorder. A tiny camera just really doesn’t cut it for what I need it to do.
Back to studying.
Lovescream mini-album finally came in today. To be honest, I downloaded the entire album while back so I didn’t expect much when the package came in. But damn was I wrong…
Lovescream is a collaboration of songs and instrumentals that were silently composed before even making their 5th album, Pieces pt. 1. It’s a small contribution to the fans who stayed with them throughout all this time. The music video for 1 Minute 1 Second is very impressive as almost the entire video is playing in reverse. The song talks about how hard it is to let go of someone. Memories of the significant other keep coming back and it makes it harder to move on. It becomes harder to breathe, for one minute, or even one second.
Roughly translated by wassereis @ Soompi
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revised March 16, 2011